Do you ever look back on your college experience and wonder how did I get through that. I was in a 'nerdy' major but I don't think I was a nerd. I was just the girl who worked hard and got ok grades. I most certainly didn't go out of my way or above and beyond, but I did well (graduated with Honors). I wasn't the student who tried things out just to see how they worked. But really, looking back, I can't remember anything. I don't really even know if I want to keep learning about this stuff.
With the ever changing technology industry there is always new things to learn, but I just don't have the desire to go above and beyond. I did it for the first few years at work but then didn't feel like it was getting me any further so now I do the minimum ( and get great reviews). And, frankly, it sucks. Where's my motivation? Where's my desire to excel? What happened to me?
I know that I'm not satisfied with my career and I can blame that on my manager, my teammates, my company or whatever, but really it's me, it's my fault. So what do I do? Part of me is ready to call it quits, head back to school and get a degree in something else (I don't know what though). I feel like I could go in any direction. I wouldn't mind going back to school to teach or work with children, but I also think that I might like management, just scared I wouldn't do well in that role. The other part of me says suck it up and deal. You have a job (for which I am extremely thankful), and it pays respectively. Why shake things up and have to learn something new? Or I could go out and apply for more jobs (which I've done). Or I could try to build up a small at home business which I've always wanted to do, I'm just not sure in which direction I'd like to go.
Kids are most likely in our not so distant future, or at least that's the plan. So that puts a whole other card in the mix. We've chosen to live a lifestyle, of a two income family. I'd love to be a SAHM but not as we live right now. I know we could, we'd just have to make changes and sacrifices. KC is completely supportive of whatever choice I make.
The problem is, I'm just not sure what is going to satisfy me. Somehow I need to figure out what's going to work for me, I'm just not sure how.
So, has anyone made any major career changes? Did you go back to school? Become a SAHM? Start your own business? How was your experience?
Yikes that's rough. I am in grad school and I feel the same way. They are just too many options. I would just suggest that you are 100% positive about what you want to do before you go back to school.
ReplyDeleteGood Luck. everything will work out in the end. Let's just hope it's sooner rather than later.
I haven't blogged about this because quite frankly, I have no idea who reads my blog. But I am in the same boat as you. Discontent. Unhappy. Unsatisfied. I have some horrible co-workers but I know that ultimately it is my choice and my problem. Z is getting ready to get out of the army in the next year so we are looking at him trying to find a job, possibly trying to start our family in the next year, so will me throwing a job change on things only add to the chaos??? Yikes! It is a lot to consider!
ReplyDeleteGood luck, I hope everything works out :)